I often wonder what I am doing, where I am going, and why. There are never any answers to these questions, and so instead of contemplating them I create work web-site.
The main problem with all of the things that I do in my life is this lack of direction. Either that or the saving grace of my life is the fact that I have no direction.
I suppose that this will be found out at some point in the future.
Anyway, I wish to tell you a story.
I am essentially a slow to anger person. However, there are some things that easily and quickly make me very annoyed.
The main thing that gets me is ping-pong.
Just yesterday I was having a friendly ping-pong game with a friend, and as usual, I was losing. Its not that I can't take losing, its that I can't deal with the slow but inevitable sinking feeling that accompanies it in ping-pong. It is one of the few times that I find myself getting mad, and I truly do mean Mad. Strange that It tends to make me so insane. I can't explain it, really. Of course, I will say that it may be because I enjoy the game so much, and that is partially due to my habit of frequently losing in it.
However, there are the times that I win in ping-pong, and though those are not times of rejoicing, they at least are not times of sorrow.
I always, unfortunately, feel sorry for my associate, when I win, however. Sometime I wonder if it's not better all around for me to lose .